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Wow! You have been through so much woo! I hope you enjoyed that pizza and I’ve cream and didn’t feel an ounce of guilt about it. The stress of trying to conceive is enormous. I’m sorry your journey has been so hard. Sending you all the woo vibes I can muster!

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Liz Medford - lizexplores.com's avatar

YES, pizza is back in the rotation, and I’ve been enjoying every bite! The rubbery crunch of a good pizza crust is what I missed most in trying to go gluten-free. I feel liberated by it!

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CB's avatar

I also have to add that I really commend your motivation and dedication. I feel so sad for your struggles and I really wish you the best. People keep telling me that I’ll get pregnant now that we’ve stopped trying and I’ve stopped stressing. I’m really not sure if I’m just trying to convince myself I’m okay with not having a child because I know it’s the safest option or if I feel shame and guilt for sharing my story because it’s true that I’m ambivalent and am actually relieved. This is a hard and confusing journey. Sending you a big hug.

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Liz Medford - lizexplores.com's avatar

I think it’s possible to have all of those conflicting feelings at the same time. We can want something but also not want it, or make a decision and then wonder what it would be like the other way. There’s no right or wrong answer, other than to trust your gut and your heart. ❤️

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Ryan Rose Weaver (she/hers)'s avatar

Yo. The path of Extreme Woo is so exhausting. And I too encountered Julia Indichova in my travels! I wonder if it’s inevitable...

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Liz Medford - lizexplores.com's avatar

I couldn’t hack it! I don’t know how anyone sustains those practices long enough for them to be helpful. I decided that Gary’s right; I just need to chill. Did you do Julia’s program?

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Ryan Rose Weaver (she/hers)'s avatar

It's too much. I think we all come back to the borders of our authentic selves eventually. Maybe with one or two things that actually did serve us well when we were sampling the wider buffet of woo. I did a call or two with her and it was interesting! But like you, I ultimately felt like I needed to look within... and dial for pizza.

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Ryan Rose Weaver (she/hers)'s avatar

Relatedly, my interviewee last week does beautiful liturgies and I thought of this one when I read this piece. Sometimes it's just nice to be held in care without given any kind of advice. https://enfleshed.com/liturgy/blessing-during-infertility/

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Liz Medford - lizexplores.com's avatar

My eyes welled up reading this, Ryan. I will read it again and again. Thank you, generous soul. 🙏

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Rabbi Shmuel Chaim Naiman's avatar

Great to see you back here, Liz! I was wondering what was happening with your explorations.

Wow, what a story!

I so identify with that very human inclination to mistake health for perfection, missing what it really means: balance. I've written about that lots on my Substack, like here:

https://thehealthyjew.substack.com/i/116924480/health-is-balance

https://thehealthyjew.substack.com/p/eat-also-almost-real-food

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Liz Medford - lizexplores.com's avatar

It seems you and I share the personality trait of taking things to the extreme! And yes, the trick is to find that elusive balance. Thank you for sharing your thoughts through your writing!

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